Archive for November, 2013

The Tart and BDSM

As Tara matures, and is she getting old, she is developing down a more fetishistic path in and around the BDSM theater. This has positively been enhanced by my new lover who has opened my eyes to so many new things. But as with everything this a very wide area of interests and I have been trying to narrow down my indulgences.

Lets be honest I dress as I do because I get a thrill seeing a tarty slut in the mirror in front of me. This changes my mindset and I want to play. In the past this has been with a dominant mistress, though from time to time I like to play the Mistress role, as I love to dress for the part! Now with my new partner it is about us discovering ourselves. IMG_5358_pp

My problem is that I am not a pain junky but my girlfriend likes to give it out. So there is an opening for a pin loving TV…interviews  over the Christmas period! Most  mistresses love to inflict pain in one form or another as part of their enjoyment. However the concept of being beaten mercilessly, or for that matter even severely, beaten so that I am marked, or worse even draw blood, has absolutely no interest to me. However my partner is starting to turn my mind…! I fully understand the issue of releasing endorphins that somehow send you into a numbed ‘subspace’ but to me it’s the mental aspects of domination that really excites me. The concept that someone is turning you to their own fantasy and that you have to work to please them is extremely erotic. On the ‘journey’ you have to endure certain sensorial elements that unnerve and excite you. It’s not a state of relaxation but a voyage of discovery.

As I have said in previous posts I had a long standing relationship with a Mistress who correctly identified me as a sensation seeker not a person seeking an endorphin rush. She instinctively knew that I had to be pushed by new horizons and new challenges. But at the same time the sessions were sensorial and full of heightened erotic tension using the voice and touch allied to plenty of restriction and play. Now with the mistressing in the background I have discovered a completely different world of a genuine play partner who excites and entices me as well as encourages me and expands my experiences in a warm and trusting environment

Girls you have to try this get on Fetlife or Alt and change from the casual to the regular with people who are similar minded. Why did it take so long for us all to discover these places!


You have to experiment and my quest continues with this darling woman. I have had many blind alleys such as bodily fluids, blood, beatings, asphyxiation and other such elements that have left me decidedly cold. I have also over the last few years been a bit of a journeyman fetishist. I have visited many mistresses (and a couple of masters) in search of a nirvana which I did not really know. Now with my true soulmate that nirvana has finally been achieved

It has been a little time since I last posted. This is purely down to me devoting myself to a wonderful relationship. I have truly found my soulmate and am blissfully happy…lucky me! But this relationship has set me thinking about how we all ‘sit’ in society. Or more importantly how we might change given half a chance.

I have come from the good old solid citizen, middle class, keep your emotions under control and don’t expose them, society. My darling soulmate comes from the sub/dom, get out there and do it kinky world. She of course is dragging me wholeheartedly into her world. Its not a sub-dom relationship the more a play partnership and we enjoy discovering and pushing each others boundaries.

But that has just been the start of it. with regular discussions it has for the first time in my life enabled me to really review who Tara is and maybe where this life is taking her. Its a thrilling journey that I hope you will all read along with me.tumblr_ml9ueoJbJb1s5i28jo1_500

I think I see Tara as a vehicle (probably a bloody land cruiser!),  a mask that can transport me from the ‘yawn’ boy to the playful girl in search of wild sexy experiences. Yes its nice to have a dressed girls night out chatting over some wine but I do not have to dress for that. I can do that with a set of boy clothes on. Dressing for me is a means to an end. I want fun and I want to push boundaries in ways in which I cannot as a male in the conformist world because I would probably be labeled a pervert.

I want to play with peoples minds and then their bodies. I have said it before the mind is the largest sex organ and it has immense capacity to create adapt and develop. Yes I want to pervert and be perverted but in a safe sane environment where we can leave strict judgement behind. Tara enables that and because she has been doing it on and off for so long she is now inextricably linked with that fun.

Yes I know this can be heavy for some but for those of us who do crossdress we have for so long searched out You can see how I have changed just by looking at my TVCHIX Profile where there is also a plethora of other information.  But to understand how this blog develops you have to understand some of what is going on in my mind. If you are a TV that just likes to dress and go out then we are not on the same wavelength. I dress because I want to expand my experiences of life. Dressed as a man I can see one viewpoint. Dressed as Tara (note I don’t say woman..I am a TV the third gender) I treat people differently and as a consequence they treat me in a different way. It is such a brilliant ‘mind fuck’ that done with the right friends and partners is an uplifting experience.Adventure1

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