Ask most Trannies why they love to crossdress and most will say they just do not know. It is something that at some point has been hardwired into them following some event in their past that awakened this urge or desire within. They then have to spend countless hours, days weeks months and years trying to understand this, which they never do, before in their mature years accepting that it is a part of them and they duly indulge as they see fit.
Yes I like leather
I was 36 years old before I accepted that this was an itch that had to be scratched, but only occasionally, though the more you indulge the more it becomes a necessity. But that is my point of view. I love dressing and having sex whilst dressed. It is my ultimate turn-on. Seeing myself in the mirror and then having sex with another whilst dressed is deeply erotic.
But this is an experience that I like to turn on and off. I also love my vanilla life. As a man and having sex in my ‘normal’ role is also highly satisfying. The problem as always is women!
I adore women worship them (yes mistress!), I want to play games with them (is that a strap-on I see before me) and so want to please those who want a shared relationship. But to most the concept of a tranny is revolting not sexy!
We are to a large extent a lonely misunderstood breed who are mostly hetrosexual people who find a form of expression in clothes and make-up that are to all extents forbidden from our sex
“Why do you want to wear women’s clothes.? Its disgusting!”
” But you wear trousers jackets ties darling.”
” But that is different I am a woman. Wearing stockings corsets and tight fitting dresses is perverted”
“And God knows why you want to play at being a slut, its so demeaning to women”
“But its just a game just living out my fantasy”
“But you like strap-ons bondage and other dark activities”
“Yes just something in my nature that enjoys this from time to time”
“You are gay aren’t you”
“Not when I am wearing the trousers but when I put on a dress I do like to play with like minded souls…but not men or hairy panty wearers”
” I want someone who will care for and protect me and gives me real sex not a sissy who prances around looking for a dominant”
” I will care for you but I also want time to explore my other side either with or without your help”
” You are not man enough for me”
” And most of all I am sorry for hiding it from you. I felt it was just a fetish or hobby in which I could indulge without your knowledge and I must apologise for the cloak and stiletto efforts on my behalf”
Yes its the outfits that turn me on
So few women can come to terms with a fetish transvestite (which is what I call a person who dresses for sexual pleasure) they see them as oddballs who do not conform to their stereotypes of what a man should be. And so it goes on. Few are lucky to find someone who wants to share their life. Have at look at Something To Confess by Karen Adler who went through all the emotions and came out a better couple.
With others like me it drives a wall between you and your relationship because the ground rules have changed so much and to start afresh for some is not possible. Some find it impossible to communicate, so there is only one unhappy outcome. A very rare few find a middle ground where he lives with her but is allowed to indulge on his/her own without much knowledge of their partner
But less melancholy lets us (or really me) look at myself… this is so cathartic!
Lets get things straight when I am in man garb I am solely attracted to women, particularly petite and feminine women. I adore trying to satisfy their needs in a mutual understanding and hopefully honest and open way
As Tara things become a little blurred. One of the fun things of putting on a new face is that is something to hide behind, something illicit and downright thrilling. Because society in general frowns on it I get an emotional high from participating in cross dressing and all the related activities. If I did this every day it would no longer have the thrill, it would become the norm. I have also noticed a change in people who become full-time TVs they tend towards a more feminine disposition and find it difficult to return to ‘normality’. This is not me 90% male 10% TV no wait 20% or maybe 30% decisions decisions
This is all about releasing a new tiger that sees sexual encounters as a thing that fulfils me I still have 80% of me that says women are sooo gorgeous but another 20% says lets see what happens if we play with another TV or a man. Again its all linked to the thrill. Who the hell needs drugs when you have this!!
So that’s me Mature Fetish Transvestite newly free and searching for a (female) partner.
But first a little freedom to let Tara have some well earned playtime. I need to find a pro-domme with whom I can establish a relationship to explore my fetish side and find out exactly where my boundaries lie. I have met a few very good ones in the past but never seemed to have the time to devote to a long term relationship. I now hope to do this.
I will keep you posted!
Just another great outfit!
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