It is interesting how having stopped dressing and participating in the fun activities that are associated with it for a few weeks I had few genuine urges to dress again. I think this was mainly due to the fact that I had a stunning new girlfriend who loves to indulge in fun and encourages the urges of Tara. But because of the ‘other’ activities many of my sexual urges have been sated. But then a few days ago when she was out an opportunity presented itself to me and lo in the mirror in front of me was a person who I suddenly found that I had missed. It is quite odd but some of us actually get a great thrill from doing things that are intrinsically unacceptable to the bulk of the community at large. We enjoy the whole illicit covert nature of what we are doing. It in particular gives me a sexual thrill. When it is accepted by the rank and file we have to move things on ourselves.
Another factor is I always like the ‘mind fuck’ aspect of dressing turning the vanilla male into the slutty female personality that lies within. but for me this takes time. the laying out of the clothes and equipment the washing shaving cleaning out etc. The makeup the dressing and the prancing around. All of this I like to do in private. I want everyone to see the butterfly..or should that be moth emerge. I don’t like people watching the transition. This is an intensely personal time of mental change for me.
I cannot explain what drives me to do it, I never have, but I realise that if I want to I can put Tara away for long periods of time. However on returning this reawakens a whole plethora of activities. I look at more shopping sites I watch make-up tutorials I look at more sites relating to tranny matters, It seems a bit like listening to a music track incessantly for a period of time to then put it away only to re-discover it a few months later and play it over and over again. Its almost like a drug that is not completely addictive but something you enjoy using from time to time.
From not really having thought about it I now start to think when looking at someone ‘what would he look like in drag?’ or a woman/TV ‘how has she achieved that look?’ or ‘what is the best beard cover?’ ‘ who is up for fun on TXChix?’ who are the current mistresses in my area who like TVs? Its a great ‘mind play’as the Americans say. As the largest sexual organ your brain loves to play tricks with you and certain sights are the trigger to a new part of your mind that can be closed for periods of time.
But awaken that giant and you step into a realm of fantasy and discovery that you had been quite happy to leave alone. It seems that is why so many of us can stop dressing for periods of time because other things take priority, but then when it becomes a bit quieter those pangs and longings return.
I particularly love stockings as you can see and in summer its just too hot to wear them so Tara tends to take a backseat during the warmer months. But come the cooler winter months when things happen indoors she comes out and she gets more adventurous as time goes on and the looks decline. So here we are at nearing autumn 2013 and the girl is in search of new fun with her new Mistress. I am so lucky to have met someone who understands me and we are on a voyage of discovery to tell you all about
The sexy lady I adore
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